I was thinking about forgiveness and acceptance. Why if the cats, probably Yoda, can pee on my laundry I am quick to chide; yet, just as quick to forgive. Unconditional love is such a unique gift. I wish it could be applied to more things in my life. I can loose my shit in bad traffic, obviously I can't accept everything.
I have unconditional love for many, honestly I'm rarely in a place where I need to forgive or in place where I question actions. sometimes though I think I'm pretty selfish with my reactions and expectations, not very unconditional at all. I'm not very accepting sometimes.
I was sitting with one of the new roomies and we were waxing poetic on relationships. I'm learning to honestly dislike the intricacies people force on relationships, the lack of acceptance for simple things. People appear to need to impose will as if its a divine right to be selfish.
Without sounding melodramatic (and now i will) I'd love to watch the BS stress people add to their lives devolve. All the pseudo-intellectual bullshit, that I'm often guilty of myself, just disappear. I still can't figure out why I can accept some events as they come and others I've allowed myself to react poorly to.
I appreciate smiles and hugs more than I ever have in my life. Truth be told I'm still on guard, I hold my heart with an iron fist, but, now I am so more apt to open up other parts and meet people on a different level, friendship is a neat thing. I'm excited to add people in my life, I'm just as excited to have the opportunity to rediscover people and enhance existing relationships. The more people I add in my life I just keep 'stealing' a little bit more from them, every borrowed item gets me closer to more acceptance.
I like progress, I'm beginning to really like moving forward. The future is a scary place, but, I wont be there alone. What an epiphany to have so late, thankfully its not too late.
Rebuilding is scary; yet ,sometimes fun.
I also clean the litter box more often, thanks Yoda.
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